@cow I'll echo most of @buttermilk's comment, and add that I hope that's dismay and frustration and maybe some small-d depression talking, rather than any kind of plan of action. It's been a rough few months on a lot of us here, and I know I've been a lot more in the shitter mentally and emotionally than is good for me.
Unfortunately we don't know each other much better than sharing some fistbumps here in our sweet corner of the Internet, but what little we *have* shared tells me you're a good guy. I won't presume to know the details or severity of your situation, but if things are really seeming that bleak to you and you'd like a shoulder or an ear or whatever, please let hit me back here. If you don't want to air all/any of it out in the open, please let me know if there's a good way for me to reach you outside of the MLKSHKverse, or at least drop a hint here and I'll post a way you can get in touch with me.
Unfortunately we don't know each other much better than sharing some fistbumps here in our sweet corner of the Internet, but what little we *have* shared tells me you're a good guy. I won't presume to know the details or severity of your situation, but if things are really seeming that bleak to you and you'd like a shoulder or an ear or whatever, please let hit me back here. If you don't want to air all/any of it out in the open, please let me know if there's a good way for me to reach you outside of the MLKSHKverse, or at least drop a hint here and I'll post a way you can get in touch with me.