Maybe tmi, but I'm going through a medical abortion right now, and this gif speaks to me more than ever. (It was a planned and wanted pregnancy that turned out to be a blighted ovum that my body just doesn't want to let go of... fuck 2016.)
@Vagiunta @1773 It's so comforting to know other women here have gone through this. I'm much more upset than I expected to be. This is my third pregnancy, and I haven't ever made it very far. I'm most upset that my body didn't recognize there was a problem with this one (I miscarried naturally with the other two), and I'm angry because I may not be fertile.
I've had a lot of gynecological issues, and the only reason I haven't gotten a hysterectomy already (even though I'm only 30) is because my doctors told me I would most likely be able to have children. Honestly, the thing I'm most excited about about even having a child is getting sweet, surgical relief from my uterus. I wouldn't have put up with its bullshit for so long if I didn't genuinely want a child, and now I almost feel cheated.
I go in on January 11th to have another conversation about my fertility and next steps. I have fibroids that are getting so large that I can feel them through my abdomen and am afraid I'm running out of time. Since I'm a teacher, we wanted to have a summer baby to make things easier, but I'm going to talk to my OBGYN to see whether we just have to keep at it and be okay with the timing whenever it works. I'm afraid to wait another 5 or 6 months to try again since the fibroids have gotten so much bigger in the last year.
Thanks for letting me vent and for making me feel less alone.
@buttermilk Thank you. If 2017 is not better, I am going to flip a goddamn table.
I've had a lot of gynecological issues, and the only reason I haven't gotten a hysterectomy already (even though I'm only 30) is because my doctors told me I would most likely be able to have children. Honestly, the thing I'm most excited about about even having a child is getting sweet, surgical relief from my uterus. I wouldn't have put up with its bullshit for so long if I didn't genuinely want a child, and now I almost feel cheated.
I go in on January 11th to have another conversation about my fertility and next steps. I have fibroids that are getting so large that I can feel them through my abdomen and am afraid I'm running out of time. Since I'm a teacher, we wanted to have a summer baby to make things easier, but I'm going to talk to my OBGYN to see whether we just have to keep at it and be okay with the timing whenever it works. I'm afraid to wait another 5 or 6 months to try again since the fibroids have gotten so much bigger in the last year.
Thanks for letting me vent and for making me feel less alone.
@buttermilk Thank you. If 2017 is not better, I am going to flip a goddamn table.